We all do?
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Crutches enable, right?
They are performance-enhancing technologies. Or are they training wheels
that beget dependence?
Dependence isn't all bad. "I couldn't have done it without
you" - this doesn't mean I'm using my friends as crutches - it means we're
working together. Interdependence is not co-dependence.
Interdependence is the awareness that everyone's actions affect everyone
else. Independence is not the goal.
Working with a movement therapist, I realized I believed (in my body) "If I
don't hold myself together, I'll fall apart". How can I let go and let
God? Is that not irresponsible? "If it's going to be, it's up
to me". I don't trust that the world will follow a divine plan
if we all say 'God will take care of it' - unless we let God work through
us.
Make me a channel of your peace, now! I was all set to be a
hero, then my Mom got Alzheimer's. She's dependent on me. She sees me as her
God. I wished she'd take God as her God and leave me free. Now I've
found her dependence freed me - brought me to presence - I am present in the
immediate moment, in the now of the day, and the week, and the year, and my
life, and eternity. And when I am present, where all my thoughts and
possessions and public responsibilities are integrated in my breathing moving
self, Mom is present with her whole self, regardless of her Alzheimer's.
True, the disease continues to ravage her brain with "plaques and
tangles", but what remains is a work of art - together we are like
Michelangelo, revealing the beauty from the block of marble.
Caregiving - the ultimate drug? For me, it led to God. Your experience may
differ.
I'm not here to sell you God. Even if my experience is Truth, if I try to sell it, I've turned it into a
drug(???). I don't
want you to start buying books, trying to consume God.
Here you will find For Sale: NothingTM - free tools and groups meeting to create the
rich life - where richness comes from creating, not consuming. How can you
create without consuming? See ___ (answer not yet explicitly in those
terms, but partially apparent here):
NothingTM
/ www.inspiredeconomies.com / www.intelligibleecosystems.com/__.
The caregiving project is documented in Imagiscape
Theatre's Heal Thyself.
